There are many things I want to write about. Many thoughts unprocessed, just waiting to burst out. It's time to lower the pressure in my head. It's time to write.

It's quite complicated, and I haven't really gotten it straight inside my head. But the writing process should help me get this done with. I want to talk about three things today. The evolution of thoughts and ideas, being different and something that's quite far out there. I can't really define it, but if I had to. I would say it's a silent communication between to entities.

I enjoy conversations, it's probably the closest thing I have to a hobby. If you could call talking a hobby. But at the same time, the thing my heart desires most is a relationship without conversations. The relationship between Totoro and his friends, is what I want. The silent, but oh so complex relationship.

I have an image in my head. It's me and another being, it changes every time I see it. Sometimes it's a small bird other times it's a girl. We don't talk, we never ever talk. We don't even look at each other. We just walk, we don't share a common goal and we don't necessarily know each other. But there's a bond between us, one that I haven't figured out yet. But it doesn't matter, because this question shouldn't be answered.

But there's something which binds me and this being together, it makes us more then the biological machines we are. It's the thing that separates us from the world we live in, for better or worse. It might be the human mind. It might be love, it could be hate.

It's the beauty of not knowing which makes this special, without the lack of knowledge it would just be two people walking.

And I think that's something every human have, the thirst for understanding. And that's what makes us all the same, no matter how different we are. Because we all seek knowledge. It might not be the knowledge taught in schools, but we all want a deeper understanding of the things around us. Thinking to yourself "Who the fuck stole my sandwich?!" is a thirst for knowledge.

Now to the next topic! Being different, and not in the "I dress in black and talk about pain every now and then"-different!

If you know me, it's likely that you've heard me rant about blogs. I generally dislike blogs, and bloggers. But I don't dislike them just because they're blogging, I dislike them because their blogs are pointless. Their blogs doesn't really do anything at all. They're just there, obstacles on the path of individuality. I decided to make a blog, even tho I don't like blogs. Because I wanted to do it my own way. I thought I could do it better then the 15 year old girls. That's the reason I have pictures of Totoro, instead of myself. That's also the reason I choose not to have any advertisement on my blog. I wouldn't make any money anyways, but the act of being different is enough. The decision to not have any advertisement is what's important. It goes hand in hand with the bubble idea (see earlier entry). You can do something that everyone else does. And if you do it in your own way, it doesn't matter if it's a lame thing. That's the kind of individuality that's good for you. That's what we all should strive after, to reach a state where we truly do things in our own way. A state where we're not different, we're just not the same.

I think I summed that topic up quite nicely. Now it's time for the evolution of an idea! This is something which has always fascinated me. I started thinking about it, after I heard Bill hicks say it in one of his shows. If you don't know who Bill hicks is ,you should check him out. He's the best stand-up comic of all time, nuff said. I didn't know what he meant, so I sat down and thought about it. And I didn't figure it out until my sister once explained how she thought. It was quite uninteresting, because it was like listening to someone telling you about their dreams. I wasn't there, it didn't actually happen and I wasn't involved, I just don't care about your dream. Anyways, I realized that Bill hicks and her were talking about the same thing. How you reach a decision, and how you generally think. How your thoughts jumps around in your mind. They're all bumping into each other until one of them sticks to you. And then you start thinking about it, and it's the winner. The winner of the thought-lottery, the one who got your attention.

I'm not going to read through this, but I hope you can read it. Peace, love and all that hippie-stuff.